The hubs mom was diagnosed with ovarian cancer 9 years ago, in 2003. She has battled the disease courageously, never losing sight of her hope and her faith. On January 13th, she was hospitalized with pain and a CT scan showed the cancer had spread. Now J found out that night, he didn't bother to tell me until Monday the 16th. My mother-in-law and I are incredibly close. I often consider her one of my best friends and she is often one of the first people I call when I need to talk about something. I love her to pieces. So when J told me his momma was in the hospital, I dropped everything I was doing and went to the hospital to see her. As always, she was in good spirits, joking with J's dad and me, telling me about their brand new wedding bands they got for their 41st wedding anniversary. The doctor came in shortly after J's dad left to go take care of some stuff at home, so Momma and I had a few minutes to catch up before the doctor came in. The prognosis wasn't good. I wasn't paying much attention to what was being said other than they had written and order for her to be switched from intravenous medication to oral medication, but it hadn't gone through (she would have to be able to tolerate the oral medications before they would release her to go home). I heard the nurse and doctor ask about in-home health care and end by saying the would discuss treatment options at her next appointment.
With sad eyes and heavy hearts, we sat for a few minutes in silence. In the 15 years I have known this woman and in the 9 years she has fought this disease I have never seen her look so defeated. Scared and worried, the boys (J and his dad) came to the hospital and Momma told them the news. 4 days have never felt so long in my life. They are going to continue her current chemotherapy treatment and do a scan at the end of the cycle to see if it's working. Thankfully her doctor feels like they still have a few options left. We are hopeful, but cautiously optimistic.
I think my biggest fear is that my beloved mother-in-law won't be around to see her grandchildren. And that breaks my heart in more ways than I can even begin to express. I am also afraid of J completely shutting down, because he does that when he doesn't want to deal with his emotions. I hate seeing my family as heartbroken as we all were this week. However, I am looking forward to more time with my mother-in-law and continue to pray that something does the trick. I know she will never be fully cured and that this disease (unless they find a cure soon) will probably end up taking her from us, but I am glad for all the years I have been able to call her my friend and happier still for her being my mother-in-law.
In more positive news, The Cloud Geeks, have officially launched their new website. Additionally, we are getting more and more clients. We just signed a new client and he has referred us two more clients. J, our business partners, and I couldn't be more excited. We need a bunch more clients before we can start paying ourselves, but it takes baby steps and word is getting around.
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